Why does it happen that every time u feel or believe tat u understand somebody you like and that you have finally reached out to the person tat everything just crumbles down and reality hits u so hard.. tat u realize ur exactly at the same spot where you had started years ago. Everything tat u think is simple gets just as complicated as it used to be. They say life gets better and simpler as you flow along with its surprises and sometimes predictabilities but this is not as true as it seems. You stand at the shore waiting for the ship to come,u see the light and you know its approaching but strong winds, and sea storms push it back away or sink it in….just like our lives..u see something uve been waiting for all ur life to come its way…and as it approaches u ..ur past either pushes it back to the same point or ur present becomes heavy enough just to take it down …Ironical twist of fate is no more just a phrase to me….well in a particular phase in my life I dint belive in fate which in itself is probably weird now..cos all my agony aunt advices were based on it now tat I think about it…hmmm…The art of handling wat life/fate/destiny..(not necessarily synonymous) throws at u comes with good practice…weighing a situation , reacting accordingly are things u learn as u walk every step of life carefully and sometimes carelessly.Follow the heart ,no follow the head…no listen to ur inner person talk and all tat bull crap confuses the hell out of me..practicality rules, but also does the resonating sound of wat ur heart is saying…its interesting how controlling the mind is so much easier than the heart especially considering tat the brain does so much overtime than the heart does I mean stuff like wat u need to eat,wat u need to read,wat u need to talk..brain functions it all..heart just pops around..when something needs to be messed up then…and tat will eventually fall in place!!…and the path of the heart leading to doomsday is experienced to be more than those who follow the head..Trust me eventually takes a lot a lot a lot of time..and just when u accept/belive alls well in heartsville…thud!there is a crackdown…everything just topples down in front of ur eyes like a pack of cards and phoosh u have to start all over again…déjà vu’s in life freak me out..cos they happen at every opportunity given!its like living the moment twice…and always an unwanted moment!Why do ppl shut themselves completely from things tat are good?sometimes I wonder if they give themselves a chance to listen to themselves…weird sentence..but wat the hell I understand it…shutting oneself from the world/ppl..helps..sometimes..but u need to choose the right ppl to not use this on..why do we close ourselves from ppl who love u a lot if not the most..why do we take everything tat comes to us easily for granted? Why is the worth of a person not understood when the person is rite there in front of ur eyes rather than wait for either one to drift away…for real or just physically(includes geographically)…